back in focus

so the new year has started and as i looked around at my home tonight i noticed, i am already behind. what does that mean, exactly? well it's the culmination of beautifully appointed christmas trees, dust, spots on the floor, an olive wood nativity and mountains of laundry from hosting a cousin sleepover and family guests. and how do i feel about all of this in 2009? i am so fine with all of this. my floor will get mopped, the trees will find their cardboard boxes and the sparkly decorations will be, once again, retired to their plastic box and placed into the abyss otherwise known as the other garage. why am i feeling ok with this? well, we have been given an amazing gift of perspective this week. one which i will eternally be thankful for. my sweet cousin just laid her 41 day old baby boy to rest. what has this taught me? so much i can't even start to explain but, mostly, what is truly important. a question i have found myself pondering is what if? what if i had just today? what would i do? how would i spend my time? i'm once again thinking about the present. eric, jokingly, looked at me today and stated that if i kept putting things off until tomorrow, i would be left with a bunch of empty yesterdays. hmm, how true this statement is. so, as i am starting this new year, i have a new perspective, or newly remembered perspective and, with all the other goals on my list, i am going to concentrate on living in the moment. baby jack taught me that. enjoy what i have. love who i am. enjoy the stage of life i am in. and to take time to let the people around me know how important they are to me. and kiss my babies a whole lot. so, a big thank you to elizabeth and adam and megan who have shared their sweet baby, their amazing testimonies, their great sorrow and their hope and faith with me. happy new year.