monday?

i'm nervous, apprehensive, scared to death and yet very excited all at the same time. today i sat alone, half dressed, on the table in the doctors office, tears freely welling up in my eyes. strange place to be, i know.  i have not been a good pregnant person this time around. i have been tired beyond anything i have ever experienced. i have had wild mood swings and plain and simply stated, my moods were not easy to control. i have felt immensely ornery and aggravated with everything and everyone. i have not always been kind and those who i love and care for the most have born the brunt of me. so today as i sat alone, exposed, and feeling quite isolated i processed the words my doctor had just used. if not by this weekend, we'll see you monday. what does that mean? that my moods will mellow out? that my aches and pains will be replaced by new and foreign pains of the after? the thing i do know is that the world is going to drastically change for me and my family. we will have a new child in our lives. a sweet, squishy squirmy little baby who will keep us up all night long! my simple afternoons are now looking uncertain, my life will be much busier and my children will need to shift their roles as we welcome this new being into our lives. crazy as it sounds, eric and i don't even have a name chosen for this child. georgia may win the battle as we bring home cake eric marshall.  we'll keep posted. any advice on a name?

three years old today

how do you celebrate your life when you only have three years to call your own? well, you wake up super early and immediately request chockie mok and a show. fill your morning hours playing with your brother and yelling at anyone who disrupts your flow of imagination play. have lunch out with the family and eat all of dad's lunch, not your own. have an afternoon snooze and wake up super grumpy, the kind of grumpy that only some serious snuggles from dad can cure. you eat your favorite dinner of mac and cheese and broccoli, and mid eating you decide to play dog and have dad feed the puppy the rest of your dinner. after dishes, you sit with mom and help her decorate your tinker cake the way you want. purple and pink! don't forget to tell mom to put the frosting on your finger so you can taste each color of icing. oh, and you tell your mom the cake is perfect after she places the little yellow flowers around the edge of the frosting masterpiece. and, to top off the day, when the cousins come to help eat cupcakes and open presents, you are showered with gifts that only a three year old would love. jewelry, horse and carriage for a princess, books and all the tinker things you could want. the night is topped off with your favorite night cap, a sip cup of chockie mok, two books and snuggles from mom and dad. i'd say that's a pretty fabulous way to celebrate three years of life. happy birthday georgia kate!