i feel like my creativity has been snuffed out. i crave moments to create, to paint, to let my wings stretch and yet i am completely stifled by my surroundings. have you ever felt that? here i am, sounding completely ungrateful for my circumstances but in reality, i am overly grateful for what i have. just feeling stifled. i live in a beautiful for someone else rental home. it truly is more than i could have asked for in a rental, hard wood floors, tall ceilings, a play area, large kitchen but so much for someone besides myself. i love open spaces, light colors with contrasting shades, minimal lines and classic modern forms. i live in a home of beige. beige walls, beige doors, beige trim, dark slate floors with beige hard woods. every upper cabinet in the kitchen is fronted with glass, as well as the pantry door and the laundry door. and the chandelier in the dining area is grandiose, so much so that tommy bahama has the same fixture in their restaurant. the staircase has an iron rail that weaves in and out of scroll shaped lines. what would i give for a light colored anything! for a splash of unexpected lightness! for a glint of stainless steel, brass or even a nod to contrast! i have been straightening up for over an hour and i can't get past the idea this house has a negative effect on my ability to create. so, my straightening up hasn't amounted to much more than wandering and stacking. cheers house! today you have won! but someday, i dream of having a space that i create full of light, full of life!