monday?

i'm nervous, apprehensive, scared to death and yet very excited all at the same time. today i sat alone, half dressed, on the table in the doctors office, tears freely welling up in my eyes. strange place to be, i know.  i have not been a good pregnant person this time around. i have been tired beyond anything i have ever experienced. i have had wild mood swings and plain and simply stated, my moods were not easy to control. i have felt immensely ornery and aggravated with everything and everyone. i have not always been kind and those who i love and care for the most have born the brunt of me. so today as i sat alone, exposed, and feeling quite isolated i processed the words my doctor had just used. if not by this weekend, we'll see you monday. what does that mean? that my moods will mellow out? that my aches and pains will be replaced by new and foreign pains of the after? the thing i do know is that the world is going to drastically change for me and my family. we will have a new child in our lives. a sweet, squishy squirmy little baby who will keep us up all night long! my simple afternoons are now looking uncertain, my life will be much busier and my children will need to shift their roles as we welcome this new being into our lives. crazy as it sounds, eric and i don't even have a name chosen for this child. georgia may win the battle as we bring home cake eric marshall.  we'll keep posted. any advice on a name?

three years old today

how do you celebrate your life when you only have three years to call your own? well, you wake up super early and immediately request chockie mok and a show. fill your morning hours playing with your brother and yelling at anyone who disrupts your flow of imagination play. have lunch out with the family and eat all of dad's lunch, not your own. have an afternoon snooze and wake up super grumpy, the kind of grumpy that only some serious snuggles from dad can cure. you eat your favorite dinner of mac and cheese and broccoli, and mid eating you decide to play dog and have dad feed the puppy the rest of your dinner. after dishes, you sit with mom and help her decorate your tinker cake the way you want. purple and pink! don't forget to tell mom to put the frosting on your finger so you can taste each color of icing. oh, and you tell your mom the cake is perfect after she places the little yellow flowers around the edge of the frosting masterpiece. and, to top off the day, when the cousins come to help eat cupcakes and open presents, you are showered with gifts that only a three year old would love. jewelry, horse and carriage for a princess, books and all the tinker things you could want. the night is topped off with your favorite night cap, a sip cup of chockie mok, two books and snuggles from mom and dad. i'd say that's a pretty fabulous way to celebrate three years of life. happy birthday georgia kate!

spelling bees

andrew has quickly become a star in his kindergarten class. last week he beat out the other kids in order to participate in the math bowl where he continued to shut down the competition until a question (which was quite ambiguous if you ask me) actually stumped him. heartbreaking as it was to watch my little friend leave the stage, my proud mom heart swelled up in my chest as i realized he had lasted over half way through the competition. today, the spelling bee. now, mind you, this is kindergarten and they were spelling very hard words that i never even used in kindergarten! not the kindergarten i attended! needless to say, eric and i sat on the bleachers, hearts racing, palms sweating as we watched this little boy of ours take his place in front of the microphone and spell some amazing words. we were definitely more nervous for him than he ever was. this morning as we were practicing he mater of factly stated, "mom, i don't need to practice, i know all of this already." true to form the child did know it all and performed amazingly. he outlasted over half the group and made it into the top 6 kids out of the 18 who participated. once again, my heart was full of that mom pride we all get when we see our child succeed. it was great to see him so excited. he realized he placed much higher than the math bowl and had a big grin on his face the rest of the bee. what a cute, smart, drive me crazy boy i have. wouldn't trade him for the world.

spring is here

spring is finally here and we welcomed this new season in on saturday with open windows, yard work and playing, playing and playing outside. after two kids with stuffy noses and dark circles, a husband who couldn't breathe and a migraine for me i purchased the allergen air filters for my house, closed the windows and dosed everyone with medicine. when is spring leaving?

shamrock pancakes

happy st. patrick's day! we started in style, wish you could have joined us!

4 and counting

serious loot. serious pirate. seriously toothless.

house of plague

eric has dubbed our home "the house of plague." during his short check in calls from work he, with concern, has asked how everyone at the house of plague is doing. nice. he is the only one who has come out of this unscathed... as of today. in my state of sickness induced coma like state i came up with a small poem. it almost brought a smile to my lips, that is if i had enough energy to smile.
i used to run
to clear my head
which is impossible now
as i lay in bed
wishing i wasn't feeling quite so dead.
hope your house has been missed by the plague. and if it has, get well soon! (and then let me know how you did it!)